Do you feel like nobody understands you?
Are you lost in life, in love, in everything?
Do you know these times when you just want to run away and let everything behind you?
I do.
There are times, like now, where I don't know what to do and only want to hide behind something!
I think I can't do this any longer and I'll break under everything.
I believe in GOD and I try to let him lead my way, but on days like this I don't understand his plan for me..
Why does he give me such a huge load I'm not able to carry any longer?
It's so hard. There are so many times in life I am greatful for and I am a person who is thankful for the tiny things in life. My life is effortless in compare to others! The problem is, that everything comes at once when it comes.
I'm full of anger, of sadness, of helplessness.. I'm trying to be strong most of the times, especially for the people around me I know need it, but then I don't understand why they don't support me when they see I'm not feeling good.
It could be that they don't see the real me. I hide behind a mask of laughter and happiness, when all I could do is cry. It's easier to do it that way. Nobody asks you what's wrong, nobody sees your pain.
I don't let many people in. Even my best friend doesn't know about my biggest problems because I am ashamed.
I'm only waiting for the day I'm old enough to go my own way. Hopefully it will get better then!
I don't want to shock anybody but blogspot was the only thing I could think of right now to share this with.
It's late at night and I just thought about running away because I can't take it anymore. Of course I'm not going to do that and I don't want to discourage someone by writing all this.
I know it will get better.
I know that GOD is carrying me in this moment.
I know He's holding his hand upon me to give me shelter.
I know He's got a perfect plan for me.
I will praise Him in this storm.
I trust in Him and I will be strong.
For Him!
